As of 3 pm today I will have made it through my first week back at work.
It's getting better.
I still maintain that I should have listened to a co worker and if I had my time back I'd have stayed off until September but hindsight is 20/20 and I'm sure on April 27th when I get my first paycheck I'll be feeling better about this choice.
I'm making progress with the clutter in my class and the kids are calming down. Baby steps.
I've also rediscovered my internal alarm clock. Every night I set the little alarm clock as well as the alarm on my phone for 6 am and 6:05 am respectively and every morning I wake up at 5:50 am. I love not being woken up by an alarm and if it means waking up 10 minutes early, I'm okay with that. It gives me this 10 minutes to blog.
Baby steps.
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Did I Make a Mistake?
Sean asked me when I came home from work last night if I felt better about my decision to go back.
Yes and no.
It was nice to get out of the house. It was nice to be around people. It was nice to use my brain for more than blogging.
But not to what I went back to.
Anyone who knows me even remotely well knows I thrive on two things - organization and structure.
I've gone back to the antithesis of this.,
I had to wade through 16 feet of crap find the top of my desk. And guess what I found on it. Mouse poop. Yeah, you read that right. Mouse shit on my desk. That's a pretty solid description of my entire class....clutter, wrapped in chaos with a sprinkling of mouse poop. Okay, I might be exaggerating a bit. There was really only a foot of crap on my desk.
I'm overwhelmed with the sheer amount of stuff that has collected in every nook and cranny of my class and can't function with a clear mind.
And I can see I'm not alone in the sentiment because the children were loud and chaotic as well.
I'm sure it will get better with time (and a garbage bag) but for now - yes, I have some serious regrets about going back to work now. I'm thinking I should have waited until September.
Too late. I'll just have to suck it up buttercup.
Yes and no.
It was nice to get out of the house. It was nice to be around people. It was nice to use my brain for more than blogging.
But not to what I went back to.
Anyone who knows me even remotely well knows I thrive on two things - organization and structure.
I've gone back to the antithesis of this.,
I had to wade through 16 feet of crap find the top of my desk. And guess what I found on it. Mouse poop. Yeah, you read that right. Mouse shit on my desk. That's a pretty solid description of my entire class....clutter, wrapped in chaos with a sprinkling of mouse poop. Okay, I might be exaggerating a bit. There was really only a foot of crap on my desk.
I'm overwhelmed with the sheer amount of stuff that has collected in every nook and cranny of my class and can't function with a clear mind.
And I can see I'm not alone in the sentiment because the children were loud and chaotic as well.
I'm sure it will get better with time (and a garbage bag) but for now - yes, I have some serious regrets about going back to work now. I'm thinking I should have waited until September.
Too late. I'll just have to suck it up buttercup.
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