The title of the post was a blinkie I saw on FF. I always got a chuckle from it. And I just learned how really fitting and true it is.
My computer crashed over the New Years long weekend. My only saving grace was that my mom got a laptop for Christmas so I was still able to get online, albeit not as easily as I can with my computer. Odd really, you'd think a laptop would make life easier for me, internet on the go but I've discovered that despite my families opinions I do a whole lot more on the computer than just surf the net.
I took 400 pictures in the time that the computer was gone (I took it in on January 2nd and got it back last night (Jan 5th)) 400 pictures in three days. And I couldn't look at them, edit them, print them....
I recently rewrote most of my daycare forms in Word and hadn't yet saved them to a stick so I wasn't able to access any of those files. Again, the saving grace was that my printer is a copier but in those three days I had two inquiries into daycare and couldn't email the policies to the parents.
My iPod is slowly dying and before the computer crashed I had been using iTunes so I wasn't completely sure that it wasn't iTunes that caused the crash so I didn't plug my iPod into my mother's computer for fear of killing her computer.
But back to that blinkie...
I am a work at home mom. So the extent of my adult interaction during the day is with my mom or...you got it....online.
Sean works bizarre and long hours. So my social life is planned out even more than the average parent. He rarely gets off work at the time he's supposed to and that puts a kibosh on making plans on work nights. So again, in order to keep in contact with friends...it's online.
We are no longer a landline family. We use cell phones and while I don't mind chatting a bit on the phone, I'm really not a phone person. I'm busy...all the time...and when I do have a free moment, no offence to anyone, but I don't want to talk to you. I'd rather fire off an email to catch up because I can continue to multitask that way.
There is one other thing. See, besides family and a few close friends, my social circle consists of a lot of people I've never even met. And the prospect of not being able to chat with them made me sad. Where else am I going to hear a story about how one friend peed on her sisters head in a shopping cart when they were kids. (hahaha...I loved that story!!) I have unlimited parenting resources at my fingertips and not just any parenting resources but ones from people who are going through the exact same thing I am because their kids were born at the same time as mine.
Any time one of them throws me for a loop I can fire off a message and within minutes I have suggestions, sympathy and even some playful teasing.
And if I didn't have my internet I wouldn't have that.
So I guess the long and short of it is that yes, I am a junkie for my computer but I'm also willing to admit it, have no desire to seek help for it. I have not turned into one of those hermits who wears sweats and hides in the basement while in chatrooms. But I'm not getting rid of my computer anytime soon. I'd be lost.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Friday, January 1, 2010
so long 2009, hello 2010
I'm not sorry to see the end of that year. It's been shit.
So on FF there was a thread about where you were during Y2K and where you thought you'd be 10 yrs later.
In 1999 we lived in Scarborough. Emily was 3 months old. We had a poker party with John and Jen and my mom and Dad. Sean fell asleep with Emily on his chest at about 11:30 and I didn't want to wake him at midnight but I didn't want to not wake him either.
10 years later, it's hard to believe how much has changed.
We bought and sold out first house and are in our second. We have two more kids. My marriage is stronger than ever. Sean has an awesome job that allows me to be a work at home mom. I've gone back to school and have a plan for the future.
We spent new years eve the same way we did 10 years ago, playing poker with John and Jen and this time, Neil and Bev too. And between us we won $65. Not bad!
Those are the good things.
Of course it wasn't all good, the most obvious being losing my dad. Nothing makes me happier to see the end of 2009 than that. I've learned in the last 10 yrs that life is measured in befores and afters.
There is our life before 2006 - the year from hell. Full of rainbows, sunshine and ignorant bliss. But in 2006 I lost two babies and almost my marriage. Life after 2006, where pregnancy is not fun but stressful and you think twice before you say things.
Life before 2009, when I was able to say with pride and confidence (and again, ignorant bliss) that cancer had not been something in our bloodline (not to say that we haven't lost people we love to cancer but there was that little bit of arrogance that it was not a blood relative so my odds and more importantly, my kids odds, were good) Life after 2009, where I not only realize that my arrogance was ignorant, that my life has been touched by cancer, forever changed and I've had to bury a parent because of it.
And if I could go back over the last 10 yrs there are a few things I would change. My dad would still be here, that would be the biggest. I don't know about the babies I lost because had I not lost them I wouldn't have Connor and I can't imagine life without him. And though 2006 was the year from hell on my marriage, in the long run it made it stronger.
So here's to a new year and a new decade. One in which we look forward instead of back. I am making resolutions this year and with any luck this time next year I can say I kept them. I will lose that 30 lbs. Wii Fit Plus with help with that. (and maybe less chicken wings and beer) I will tighten the purse straps and pay down 50% of the window debt, and not accumulate more. I will continue to get A's in school and work toward my ultimate goal of opening a daycare centre. I will learn to use my new fancy camera and will take our own family portrait for the Christmas card next year.
Most of all though, I plan to finish off 2010 with all the people in my life who started the year with me. And if I'm lucky, maybe I'll even be able to finish it off with a new friend or two.
Happy New Year Everyone!
So on FF there was a thread about where you were during Y2K and where you thought you'd be 10 yrs later.
In 1999 we lived in Scarborough. Emily was 3 months old. We had a poker party with John and Jen and my mom and Dad. Sean fell asleep with Emily on his chest at about 11:30 and I didn't want to wake him at midnight but I didn't want to not wake him either.
10 years later, it's hard to believe how much has changed.
We bought and sold out first house and are in our second. We have two more kids. My marriage is stronger than ever. Sean has an awesome job that allows me to be a work at home mom. I've gone back to school and have a plan for the future.
We spent new years eve the same way we did 10 years ago, playing poker with John and Jen and this time, Neil and Bev too. And between us we won $65. Not bad!
Those are the good things.
Of course it wasn't all good, the most obvious being losing my dad. Nothing makes me happier to see the end of 2009 than that. I've learned in the last 10 yrs that life is measured in befores and afters.
There is our life before 2006 - the year from hell. Full of rainbows, sunshine and ignorant bliss. But in 2006 I lost two babies and almost my marriage. Life after 2006, where pregnancy is not fun but stressful and you think twice before you say things.
Life before 2009, when I was able to say with pride and confidence (and again, ignorant bliss) that cancer had not been something in our bloodline (not to say that we haven't lost people we love to cancer but there was that little bit of arrogance that it was not a blood relative so my odds and more importantly, my kids odds, were good) Life after 2009, where I not only realize that my arrogance was ignorant, that my life has been touched by cancer, forever changed and I've had to bury a parent because of it.
And if I could go back over the last 10 yrs there are a few things I would change. My dad would still be here, that would be the biggest. I don't know about the babies I lost because had I not lost them I wouldn't have Connor and I can't imagine life without him. And though 2006 was the year from hell on my marriage, in the long run it made it stronger.
So here's to a new year and a new decade. One in which we look forward instead of back. I am making resolutions this year and with any luck this time next year I can say I kept them. I will lose that 30 lbs. Wii Fit Plus with help with that. (and maybe less chicken wings and beer) I will tighten the purse straps and pay down 50% of the window debt, and not accumulate more. I will continue to get A's in school and work toward my ultimate goal of opening a daycare centre. I will learn to use my new fancy camera and will take our own family portrait for the Christmas card next year.
Most of all though, I plan to finish off 2010 with all the people in my life who started the year with me. And if I'm lucky, maybe I'll even be able to finish it off with a new friend or two.
Happy New Year Everyone!
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