Melting my heart

When I was a kid there was nothing better than my mom singing me a lullaby before bed. In later years though I realized that all these songs she sang to me were horribly sad.

She sang one called "Turn Around" I challenge you to listen to the words of that song and not want to hang on to your kids with a death grip. As I got older and listened to the words of the song when my mom sang it used to make me so sad because I didn't want to grow up.

Then there's "Lonely Little Robin" Now until I just searched for it on YouTube I didn't know it was an actual song. My Nana (my great grandmother) sang it to my mother who sang it to my brothers and I. Not the whole song though, just the chorus. And I've always sung it to my kids. But listen to the words of the chorus, again, depressing!

And let's not forget You Are My Sunshine. While it's not as depressing, the first verse is pretty sad... (it also reminds me of a lady I used to work with in a daycare centre. She was an older lady, very grandmotherly, so it was always surprising to hear her sing "....when I awoke, dear I was mistaken, so I hung myself and I died." Good times.

Lonely Little Robin and You Are My Sunshine are Connor's current favorites. I have to sing them before every nap and at night. And as of yesterday, he now sings them with me. So we can carry on the family tradition - that one day he will be able to sing these horribly depressing songs to his babies and love every single minute of it.

Oh, and the heart melting. After I sang his uber depressing lullabies while rubbing his head he sang "AlphaBlackSheepTwinkleStar" to me while he rubbed my head.

That's what makes being a mom worth all the shit they put us through.